Posts Tagged ‘car’

Smoked Out Part 41

Saturday, June 27th, 2020

Iris slipped in the slightly opened shop door and found Albert sitting in his chair at the bench with his eyes closed.

“Albert I need your help.” Iris said.

Albert jolted up out of his meditative state.

“Geez Iris you startled me.”

Albert took a deep breath to gain composure.

“Sure what do you need?”

Iris paused.

“I found an SUV that I like and I called the lot. It’s available and I want to go see it. I would like you to come with me and look it over.” Iris said.

“When do you want to go?” Albert asked.

“Soon. It’s at Anderson’s Automotive.” Iris told him.

“Okay, give me a few of minutes and I’ll be right out.”

“Oh, and Albert one more thing, when we’re at the lot, please don’t ask me if I want to look at other cars. If I see another car I want to check out or if this one has problems I will look around and let you know. I’m focused on this one.”

“Okay Iris, I understand.” Albert said softly gazing into her eyes.

Iris broke the gaze, looked down, turned around, and left.

Coming back into the house, Iris couldn’t believe the moxie she showed–if that is the right way to put it. I mean, I told him what I wanted and I did it with no hesitation she thought.

Tears welled up in her eyes.

Why is this simple thing making me so emotional she thought?

Iris took a deep breath and then let it out. Iris, this is you. This is who you are it’s who you’ve been all along.

 

 

Inner Critic Rants

Wednesday, September 29th, 2010

A few days ago I flew in to the PDX Airport after a conference I attended.

I went to one of the nearby economy parking lots to find my car. The parking lots are color coded and fortunately I knew the color of the lot but didn’t remember the parking shelter letter.

I was frustrated and tired and just wanted my car!

I had a lot of inner dialogue going on in my mind that evening not the least of which was how stupid I was because I couldn’t find my car!

Fortunately, I remembered the cars general location and with the help of a nice parking lot security driver, was able to find it with relative ease.

I bring this incident up because there really wasn’t any use in badgering myself. It didn’t make the situation better but instead made it more stressful on me.

And what was even harder to deal with was the fact that less than three months ago I’d made a similar mistake. That time I didn’t make a mental note of lot or shelter letter. Fortunately, again, I remembered the general location so was able to pinpoint my cars location.

Taking a positive approach, I vow that next time I will get it right. This isn’t rocket science and I know I can figure out airport parking it’s just that for me, air travel is still a relatively new experience. It was years before I went anywhere in a plane and am still learning the nuances of flying.

Does your inner critic ever beat your up?

Don’t let it!

Calm it down, turn it down, or better yet silence it. When this voice tells you you’re stupid or incompetent or that you’ll never be successful or happy or whatever it tells you, resist the urge to give that voice total power over you.

Pay better attention to the nurturing voice. The one that tells you it’s okay you made a mistake–it doesn’t matter because you’ll do better next time. That voice–the nurturing one, is your friend.