Archive for the ‘Destructive Relationships’ Category

Standing in a Sinkhole

Saturday, September 29th, 2018

No ContactIf you’re standing in a sinkhole sticking around long enough to be fully encapsulated shouldn’t be an option.

When circumstances continue to spiral down you know it.

The only reason for sticking around is feeling that there is hope.

The problem is, do you really want to be hopeful in a sinkhole situation?

Is there pushing, shoving, hitting, biting, tripping, slapping or any other form of physical abuse? Is a relationship partner ignoring disregarding or undermining or doesn’t want to spend time with you? If you feel your circumstances are situational how much time do you think it will take to turn things around?

Be honest with yourself. We usually know deep down when a relationship has potential and when it does not. Are you communicating with your partner letting them know how you feel? Do you feel safe enough to communicate with your partner?

Your first job is to take care of you. Once you crawl out of the sinkhole the pieces your life will begin to fall into place. This can only happen through honest communication with your partner and a willingness by both of you to create change. If that is not possible removing yourself from the relationship is the alternative. You know if communication is unsafe.

To seek help contact the Domestic Abuse National Hotline:

1-800-799-7233

1-800-787-3224 TTY

The National Sexual Assault Hotline

1-800-656-4673

Strong Arming & Silencing You

Monday, July 30th, 2018

No ContactIf you are in a relationship with a partner who practices strong arming you are familiar with words that block you from speaking your truth. Having a conversation that confronts or questions is usually met with blocks such as:

We’re not going to talk about this.

OR

I’ve told you I don’t want to talk about this.

OR

Don’t talk to me about this.

OR

If you continue to talk about this or if you don’t stop talking about this–there’s the door.

etc. etc.

You may think you are obligated to keep silent.

You might decide that having your truth heard is not worth the fallout and choose to keep your thoughts to yourself.

However, by silencing your truth you squelch who you are as a human being.

You miss out on being who you are meant to be.

No one has the right to take YOU out of the picture.

No one has the right to tell you what you can and can’t talk about.

No one has the right to tell you that what you have to say means nothing and is better left unsaid.

But every time you allow another person to silence your words you are allowing another person to take away your freedom to be you.

Strong arming is a tactic used by abusers and is used to gain and retain power.

You don’t have to live life being strong armed.

The only person stopping you from breaking the pattern is YOU.

You only have one life. Make it your own.

As always if you are in a situation in which you are not safe seek help.

1-800-799-7233 Domestic Abuse Hotline

Biggest Battles

Sunday, July 29th, 2018

No ContactOur biggest battles are the ones we wage with ourselves.

We become frustrated, depressed, sad, and angry because of mistakes we’ve made

or ways in which we feel we’ve said or done the wrong things.

It’s much easier for us to forgive the actions of others or at the very least understand

the reasoning for what was said or done by someone else.

We downplay our accomplishments and wonder why no matter what we do or say it is

never enough.

We MUST celebrate our accomplishments no matter how small WE think they are.

If we don’t acknowledge the steps we take in life we will not see the value of what we do

and neither will anyone else.

Celebrate for yourself.

Acknowledgement is powerful.

We are here a short time and the more we celebrate

the sweeter the journey.

Stand up for yourself always. Wage battle only when necessary.

Be kind–especially kind to you.

Test the Water

Saturday, June 9th, 2018

When we don’t test the water we don’t know where we stand.

I was taught not to disrupt the flow and keep up the status quo.

That was poor advice but it was what I learned to do.

If we don’t test the water we don’t know just how much we can grow.

In all relationships we have a choice.

We can stay with what we know and basically tread water indefinitely.

Or we can present a challenge to self and partner. Raise the bar so to speak.

Ask for what you need and want. You are not asking for too much when you do this.
It is never too much to ask for what you want and to have your needs met–it is a sign of strength.

A true partnership is much stronger than we think. A partnership that goes untested is more fragile than one
that has faced multiple challenges.

A true valued partner provides opportunity for candid and quality conversations. They will tell you what you need
to hear, not what you want to hear. If you never get to the place where the water is tested chances are you will not meet growth
head on. And if you choose not to grow your going in the opposite direction.

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Whisperer

Saturday, May 26th, 2018

No ContactDo you know a whisperer? I had a conversation not too long ago with a friend who told me she doesn’t like to go into her dentist office even though she thinks the dentist is great because the receptionist staff whispers in the receptionist area.

I shrugged and said they probably need to keep quiet because of patient confidentiality.

She said no, she didn’t think that was it and said she’s observed that after a patient comes into the office to check in and then sits down in the waiting area the reception staff whispers among themselves about the patient.

I got to thinking about this and said you know maybe you should say something to the staff. And she said– she didn’t want to make a big deal out of it.

So here’s the thing:

Call it what you will but there are people who like to talk about other people period. There are some people who are not so subtle about it and do it no matter whether the person is with in earshot or not. They like it and they do it and that’s just the way it is. You can like it or not like it and it really doesn’t make any difference because they don’t care.

But here is the absolutely beautiful thing about gossip because when it comes right down to it when a person whispers–it is often gossip.

It doesn’t matter what anyone else says or doesn’t say.

It doesn’t matter who someone else is or isn’t being.

It doesn’t matter what anyone else does or doesn’t do.

The only thing that you or I or anyone else has any control over is ourselves. We have the amazing opportunity to take care of ourselves and what others do or say or who they are or aren’t has absolutely no bearing on us.

The worry about others is a wasted worry. Staying up at night or waking up at night worrying about what you think someone else is doing or saying or being is not in any way shape or form a matter that should hold you captive.

Others can whisper, shout, or scream and it has nothing to do with us.

Take charge, go out there and be you. You are the only person who can and it is your responsibility to do that. Others will either like it or they won’t and be glad that we all have the freedom to make that choice.

Give to Ourselves First

Friday, May 18th, 2018

No ContactThose of us who keep looking to the outside for our happiness and well being are always going to find disappointment and likely even abuse in our love relationships because there is no living person who can give to us what we must give to ourselves first.

Another person can be supportive of who we are and stand beside us but if we do not stand up for us first why would another person? We will get exactly the type of relationship partner that we are ready to receive and if what we’re ready for is someone who is always looking for someone outside themselves to fill and make them whole we will be a match with that person because we are looking for the same thing.

If we get involved in love relationships too quickly before we truly know the person we are setting up the end of the relationship right from the beginning. Abusers like quick starts as they are not patient people. They want what they want when they want it and they let you know quickly that they are running the show. If you fear confronting this opposition and keep quiet when you should be speaking up you are choosing to maintain the relationship rather than speaking your truth. The difficult conversations are vital to your health and well being.

So ask yourself, who is running the show? You must choose you! In the face of abuse what else are you going to do?

If you want to be in charge of your life and have loving relationships with people who also love themselves you must change the way you view relationships and yourself. There is no other way.

There are resources to help you. Follow this link to a resource where you may just find the help you
need: http://bit.ly/2qBHUd8

As always, you must be safe. If you are living in a destructive relationship do what you can for yourself while still in your current living situation.

Anxiety Works Overtime

Wednesday, March 28th, 2018

Anxiety is never satisfied. In fact there are times when anxiety really outdoes itself and goes beyond the norm.

If it could it would keep us alert 24/7.

It depresses, alerts, foils, manipulates.

It talks us into something one minute and out of it the next.

It is relentless and we wage lifelong battles with it.

No one escapes but we can learn to lessen it.

So what do we do to tame this savage beast? How do we put it in it’s place so we can live life without succumbing to it’s wishes?

It’s so simple yet extremely difficult to calm anxiety down but
we’ve got to control it.

Control the amount of time it takes over in our lives.

We’ve got to tell it to go away, shut the door, slam the lid, seal it up.

Walk away.

We tell it to shut up and mean it!

There is no one else who can.

At 3am enough is enough.

When we obsess, hold onto a thought, keep a conversation going that needed to end 30 minutes ago we’ve allowed anxiety to take over. Next time you’re in that moment

STOP.

Take a deep breath in through the nose and hold for a count of four then release through your mouth. Your body gives you the signal that you’re okay.

BUT don’t take too many deep breaths in a row or you will hyperventilate which will make your anxiety worse.

You might think–deep breathing won’t get me a new job, solve my relationship problems, pay the bills, or get me out of debt and you’re right, it won’t

BUT

Taking a deep breath every now and then gets oxygen to the brain which in turn allows you to think more clearly. It also slows the heart rate down and makes you feel less anxious even if for a moment.

And if you put together enough of these brief moments whose to say that your body and mind won’t be better able to handle some of the major stressors in your life.

Give yourself a break every thirty minutes or so to take a deep breath. You could set an alarm on your phone, find a visual cue like a clock or make a sign that says BREATHE…to help you. Stick that sign where you can see it!

Whatever you use, make it a practice to take big deep breaths regularly throughout your day. It’s one way to take an active measure to keep anxiety at bay.

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Baby Elephant tied to a Peg

Sunday, January 28th, 2018

Have you felt tied to a peg? The link below is worth the read. You will need to copy and paste to view. Have a wonderful Sunday!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IXTzc83CPZc”>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IXTzc83CPZc

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With the Intention of Being Real

Monday, January 15th, 2018

Being real.

Seems easy enough and I think we believe we actually are being real most of the time.

Yet when it comes right down to it and you have the opportunity to say what you really mean when it goes completely against what someone else believes will you play it nice and go along with what they say?

OR

Will you tell them what you really think?

When you sincerely agree, you agree and it is absolutely and positively no problem but when you don’t yet you say that you do

you are not being real.

Going against yourself hurts no one but you and the more you do it the more you will continue to do it.

It is far more honest and in honor of yourself to go into conversation with the intention of being real.

Being real doesn’t mean being mean hurtful or acting rude or uncaring.

Being real simply means that you let other people know what you think and who you are.

They may disagree with you.

Them may be critical of you.

They may choose to walk away from you

However, you live from the inside out.

Not the other way around.

Who you are, what you stand for, what you say, and what you think are part of you.

You misrepresent yourself if you don’t stand up for all that you believe.

If you fear telling another what you think, who you are, what you believe, you must face the fact that you have this fear and act accordingly which may mean disengaging with this other person altogether.

If you fear telling another person what you think, who you are, and what you believe because you fear for your life you must act accordingly and do what is necessary to keep yourself safe.

If you are not safe please call:

1-800-799-7233

TTY 1-800-787-3224

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Purpose

Monday, January 1st, 2018

Living without purpose means living life without an anchor-without roots.

Our roots are planted from inside us and then branch out.

Being firmly rooted from the inside provides structure and awareness of self. Once we are firmly
rooted we will seek out others who are the same.

When we attempt to root our existence by attaching to another person for our security, solidness, and support before firmly attaching to self we become dependent on that other person for our survival.

We are responsible for us.

We develop our sense of self from within.

As children we depended on others for our survival.

As adults we are responsible for ourselves and our own survival.

Root your feet to the ground beneath you and establish your own root system.

You will know your purpose because you are solidly established from within.